A Need to Change
March 27, 2020 145.2 lbs This was NOT ok. The numbers on the scale had been slowly creeping up for the past few months, but his was a new high. Or maybe it was a new low. Either way, it was bad. I'm sitting here with many mixed emotions. 98% of them are negative. Overwhelming feelings of: Frustration Sadness Anger Disappointment (in myself) Anxiety I am acutely aware of every step I take and how I can feel my inner thighs rubbing together. I hate it. Something needs to change. This is why I'm here. I am here for me. I am here for you if you are fighting this same battle of self hatred over weight gain. Mostly I need to be held accountable. And if I can send these thoughts out into the cyber universe and actually work through this crap, I'll come out the other end a healthy weight. We've got this xoxo