A Need to Change
March 27, 2020
145.2 lbs
This was NOT ok. The numbers on the scale had been slowly creeping up for the past few months, but his was a new high. Or maybe it was a new low. Either way, it was bad.
I'm sitting here with many mixed emotions. 98% of them are negative.
Overwhelming feelings of:
Frustration
Sadness
Anger
Disappointment (in myself)
Anxiety
I am acutely aware of every step I take and how I can feel my inner thighs rubbing together. I hate it. Something needs to change.
This is why I'm here.
I am here for me.
I am here for you if you are fighting this same battle of self hatred over weight gain.
Mostly I need to be held accountable. And if I can send these thoughts out into the cyber universe and actually work through this crap, I'll come out the other end a healthy weight.
We've got this
xoxo
145.2 lbs
This was NOT ok. The numbers on the scale had been slowly creeping up for the past few months, but his was a new high. Or maybe it was a new low. Either way, it was bad.
I'm sitting here with many mixed emotions. 98% of them are negative.
Overwhelming feelings of:
Frustration
Sadness
Anger
Disappointment (in myself)
Anxiety
I am acutely aware of every step I take and how I can feel my inner thighs rubbing together. I hate it. Something needs to change.
This is why I'm here.
I am here for me.
I am here for you if you are fighting this same battle of self hatred over weight gain.
Mostly I need to be held accountable. And if I can send these thoughts out into the cyber universe and actually work through this crap, I'll come out the other end a healthy weight.
We've got this
xoxo
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